亭子

那个...buta，给你的文还是要写的，不过最近都不在状态，等我调整好了，在仔细想那个吧，^_^。

 

    好吧，我又来抱怨我的成绩了。
    失败的原因总是相同的，一个阶段的成绩总是能够联系上我这一段时间的生活态度。我是那种当状态好的时候，同时能够干成很多件事，状态不好的时候，什么都干不成的人。爸妈总说我玩游戏如何如何，但是还是那句话，it's not the thing to blame，当状态不好的时候，就是我去写东西，去画画，去弹琴，去看文，去发呆，就是不去干正事。
    或许还有一些其他的因素影响这半学期的成绩，比如SAT。可是对于SAT，我也没有太高的期望值。其实也如父母一样告诉过自己：最后这几个月，咬咬牙过去就好了。可还是没用。我以前认为我是个没有压力的人。现在觉得，我其实很在意，给自己的压力很大，大到起反作用了，大到开始逃避了。我感觉，我自己就是个特大的悖论。至今我还没能找到方法解决这种情况。应该可以尝试积极一些，不过这并不容易保持。
    还有一个问题，就是：我实在是太懒了。
    之后另一个问题，就是：我实在是太爱睡了。总觉得是春天的问题，好像是冬天没过好，还没醒来的样子。

 

还是具体反省一下考试吧。
数学 91+12=103
语文 102
英语 134
化学 81+42=123
物理 77+38=115
生物 85
政治 76

 

看起来惨不忍睹吧。太惨不忍睹了。

    先说进步吧，一会集中自我批判。
    化学比想象中好点，整体感觉。因为这段时间的有机学得我是一头雾水。考试之前总结笔记还是有用的。不过即使这样，基础细节还是欠缺着。物理...很对不起小罗，这学期都没听，附加答38，很意外。生物后面填空才错了两个，进步。政治大题系统的练过，果然有进步。不过平时选择都考50~55，这次才40+，太逊了。
    现在在课后花的时间太少了，尤其如数学，化学，生物这种科目。同学们总结说，做太多题没用，可是我其实是，做的题太少了。一点也不做不行啊。虽然说最近学解几，单看那么一两道题，无论是下笔还是不下，觉得会了，以为不错了。可是没有系统的练习，做题速度很慢，而且无法集中精神。如果卡在某一小点上，就慌，然后全军覆没。化学和生物，知识点多而杂，课上听经常是记了笔记了，可是记不到脑子里，或者说，容易忘。所以课下应该看着笔记recall一下，回忆回忆，顺一顺，否则到最后很容易漏知识点。
    物理...没什么好说的，听讲，理解，做题。
    语文呢，不用花太多时间，上课认真听，听分析课文，然后课后做做一课一练什么的，就好了。语文作文是可以跟英语一块提高的，嗯嗯。
    政治，就剩会考了。其实坚持现在的状况，结果将是乐观的。知道大题整体的套路，加上把重点背好，选择题做好……可以尝试蜗牛的办法，把书要仔细看一遍。
    还有一个知识点的问题，学新课要不是回顾，总结一下嘛，做题也是。其实这种事情以前在口头上或者潜意识里面也做过，不过如果有目的的去做，效果会更好。

 

    之后...我觉得我该减肥了，嗯嗯。以前一直觉得不在意这种事的，但是有了总比没有好吧。应该调整饮食结构什么的，可是我总是懒得动弹。唉……不喜欢素质锻炼，比较喜欢譬如tracking或者各种跟着音乐乱蹦等等的，就是缺乏条件。
不过条件是创造出来的，嗯嗯。

 

     最终，还是要改变生活态度吧，这是完事成功的前提。任重道远啊，我这个屡教不改的家伙。太...内啥了。

万恶的俺～鲜有更新space昂...

 

3月4号考完的托福，回来的时候碰到东北大雪，火车被困一天，晚点14小时...

前天分数出来了（之前都看错了，是15个工作日，就是3个星期），考了107...Not bad, but not that excellent.

小猪考了109...BS一下～（iBT果然是BT的）

 

下面还1个月到SAT...8班Nancy跟我同一天同一个考场。没时间复习了T_T 就这么几个星期，太...

发愁啊～尤其是作文。

（我要清心寡欲，嗯嗯）

 

万恶的我貌似很久木有管网站的事情了...eeee

提不起精神。

最近继续听诡异的音乐...

vurt2 vurt3...都很强的说～

音乐也好听，那个Someday， 强推。

 

FLIPSYDE LYRICS

"Someday"

[Chorus]
Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

 

[Verse 1]
They tellin' me it's all good just wait
You know you're gonna be there someday
Sippin' on Jim Beam ok
Gotta get these things one day
Till then do another line you know
Searching for that other high
Stop or I gotta steal then steal
Kill or I'm gonna be killed
I got a sack in my pocket
Conscious yellin' drop it
You know we're gonna lose it someday
And we tryin' to hold it all together but the devil is too clever so
I'm gonna die you gonna die we gonna die Someday one day I said

 

[Chorus]
Someday we gonna rise up on the wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

 

[Verse 2]
Try to lie but it ain't me Ain't me
Try to look but I can't see
Can't stop right now cause I'm too far and I can't keep goin' cause it's too hard
In the day in the night it's the same thing
On the field on the block it's the same game
On the real if you stop then it's no pain but if you can't feel pain then it's no gain
Rearrange and you change and it's all bad and you try to maintain but you fall back
And you crawl and you slip and you slide down
Wanna make it to the top better start now
So I hold my soul and I die hard
All alone in the night in the graveyard
Someday one day I'm gonna be free and they won't try to kill me for being me
Hey someday

 

[Chorus]
Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

 

If you know how this is
Gonna see it's not that easy
Don't stop get it till it's done
From where you are or have begun
I said keep on try a little harder to see everything you need to be
Believe in your dreams
That you see when you're asleep

 

[Chorus]
Someday we gonna rise up on that wind you know
Someday we gonna dance with those lions
Someday we gonna break free from these chains and keep on flyin'

 

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抱着Someday的想法。

Someday we gonna dance with those lions

 

 

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还有百听不厌的： D.O.A (Foo Fighters)

 

D.O.A

 

Yeah, you know I did it
It's over and I feel fine
Nothing you can say is gonna change my mind
Waited, and i wait the longest night
Nothing like the taste of sweet decline

I went down and i fell, i fell so fast
Dropping like the grains in an hour glass
Never say forever 'cause nothing lasts
Dancing with the bones of my buried past

Never mind there's nothing I could do
Bet your life there's something killing you.

It's a shame we have to die my dear
No one's getting out of here alive
This time
What a way to go but have no fear
No one's getting out of here alive
This time

I'm finished, i'm getting you off my chest
Made you come clean in a dirty dress
A promise is a promise if kept in check
Hard to cross a heart that beats its fist

Take a good hard look for the very last time
The very last one in a very long line.
Only took a second to say goodbye
Been a pleasure, but the pleasure's been mine all mine

Never mind there's nothing I could do
Bet your life there's something killing you.

It's a shame we have to die my dear
No-one's getting out of here alive
This time
What a way to go but have no fear
No one's getting out of here alive
This time

Ain't no way
D.O.A
Ain't no way
D.O.A

Take a good hard look for the very last time
The very last one in a very long line
Only took a second to say goodbye
Been a pleasure, but the pleasure's been mine all mine

Never mind there's nothing I could do
Bet your life there's something killing you.

It's a shame we have to die my dear
No one's getting out of here alive
This time
What a way to go but have no fear
No one's getting out of here alive
This time

It's a shame we have to disappear
No one's getting out of here alive
This time
This time
This time

这次期末RP爆发了。

物理，语文，英语都NB了，数学化学砸的也NB了。

不过还是有进步DI~

老刘说：活动影响学习，安静安静安静安静安静安静安静安静安静安静.................

然后，下半学期英语短剧，网站...等等...照做不误。

哈哈！反驳了他一下。呼～

正在犹豫要不要说，一直不想在blog里面提wow了。

但是，就一句话吧。Tours丢了。丢了就丢了吧，full stop。

本来想周五更新的. 但是space一直登不上add blog的界面.

现在补

 

1.与Em比喻"被剥削煎熬". 即, 取Em, 去皮, 切块, 放入油锅炸至金黄, 再用沸水煮3分钟.

剥削, 煎熬. 一星期如此.

 

2.万恶的考试周终于过去了!

啊哈哈!

普天同庆~~全国人民9. 10日放假两天~~~~

哦呵呵呵~

最近班里貌似开始做各种系列的逻辑题, 智商题, 据说是那个baidu "小镇之月光" 擂台挑起的.

去某个吧看了道      彩票N选1的问题

 

"  有一天，你去买彩票，老板一共有1万张，你买走了一张，还没有刮开
这时候，那个老板突然把眼睛蒙了起来，然后在剩下的9999张里刮啊刮，也不知道是他运气太好，还是运气太丧！反正他刮了9998张，都是空的，（别跟我说不可能，有万分之一的几率中奖，就有万分之一的几率刮空）
于是老板问你：‘要不要用你那张，换我剩下的这张？’

我再重申一遍，老板他真的不知道哪张有奖！！   "

 

这道题其实出的有漏洞, 但是可以分类讨论. 血红的贴子, 他说老板手里那张概率大点. 小镇说一样大的. 两人讨论了半天.

 

我是同意小镇的.结果是两个中奖几率都一样, 无论哪种情况.

题目的漏洞就是说, 它没有说, 那张中奖彩票在不在这10000张里面. 如果不在, 显然两张的几率都是一样. 不多说.

如果在这10000张里面, 还是按小镇说的(我的算法和他一样的):

 

   "  我的意思是说，在一开始没有抽中的情况下
一开始没有抽中的概率（9999/10000）*老板在9999张彩票里，随机连续开出9998张不中彩票的几率（1/9999）=1/10000
一开始抽中的概率（1/10000）*板在9999张彩票里，随机连续开出9998张不中彩票的几率（1）=1/10000
两者相当，OK？  "

 

血红的误区在于9998张的必然性. 他认为这这道题与羊/车的是一样的. 其实不然. 因为羊/车那个, 主持人是故意给你开出一个没车的, 而这里, 老板刮奖是完全随机的. 他本人贴的题也说:"我再重申一遍，老板他真的不知道哪张有奖！！" 说明题设情况是有巧合性的, 而羊/车问题, 题设是必然的. "故意", 和"随机", 真的是不一样的.

题设=已知=已经发生. 血红说在这里条件, 这个题设就是100%发生. 按血红的说法, 那老板就跟"故意"的无两样了. 题设=已知=已经发生 不等于 100%, 是前提, 而不是必然. 这样说有点绕...但是的确是这样.

小镇说过:"血红风暴，请你注意，你所谓的100%是在彩票开出以后，而不是以前。
而第一张的1/10000是在这9998张开出以前，而不是以后。
换句话说，这是两个不同时期的概率，不能想减运算，OK？ "

也就是这个意思了.

 

也可以用羊/车做个模型. 这回不让主持人故意开出个羊. (如果血红认为故意随机无影响, 那么换一下可以吧) 而是随机开门. 记录所有主持人开出羊的次数和这其中参赛者一开始选的里面就是车的次数, 一定是趋进于50%的.

因为是随机, 所以彩票一开始1/10000的属性是不变的.

 

所以这道题还是, 换与不换都是一样的.

最后, 让我极度鄙视一下那个"老板".

 

很多改动，很多改动，改动啊啊啊啊啊！

PC不知道改了多少遍了，面目全非了，现在我演Tiffany了。

貌似每天下课都要排练。eeeeeeee。

 

 

今天够累，去买短剧的衣服饰品etc. PC她们命令我们去西单明珠买（&^%#$#%$我不说啥了）。12:25下课，陪他们到学校放自行车，13:30才到五道口。2:30到西单，吃饭。等啊等，吃了一个小时，才去买东西。

买东西是痛苦的，痛苦的，痛苦的...

逛街时痛苦的，痛苦的，痛苦的...

为了那么两件背心，我们在几十平米的地方转了一个小时。（天边隐约浮现出了一个“日”字）。

PC没来，后来找不到她，可是我们的样式改动还要找她商量...

 

后来就自己决定了。终于25RMB搞定了两件，一黑一白（天蓝的n难找）。回去自己贴毛边，亮片。

那个衣服非常的sexy=. =|||bb 生平没穿过。

这才是第一项。

然后10RMB买下了35RMB的装饰花。

还有20RMB买了35RMB的fancy发夹。

Tiffany的衣服就是太张扬。（我怎么活！）

Matt的衣服很难，很难找。

Em明天要去天易找其他meterial. （例如我们的毛毛，亮片）

 

回来的时候赶上人潮。在地铁站爬上爬下。走了一天，快死了。

西单看到了“各式各样”的人。不像我每天20分钟从起床到出门。这些人估计一个小时也不够。看那妆。eeeeee

还看到了一堆很punk的青年们。还有一堆很punk的店：衣服，理发，etc.

事一堆作业一堆今天就过去了。

我还是那句话：太阳了。（<==包含千言万语）

前几天又是肚子疼又是感冒发烧，在家里躺着歇着，看了慧推荐的《神玉》，挺强，就是太长。知道个人叫做：天籁纸鸢。上网查他文，到了baidu的吧。

然后。

我终于发现写耽美的男生了...eeeeeeeee...NB

前几天发现世上最找茬的一句话：

  We have this kind of English play show in Year 11, where every class have to come up with a drama and perform it. It's pratically in the end of this term, but our story had come out already and we're starting to memorize the lines from now.

  I had this role, for surprise, who is one of the main characters in the play, named Lesley. She's some sort of innocent, modest girl, full of goodness, and was born to have everybody's sympathy. It killed me. Was I that kind of girl? How could I act like that? Oh, com'on...  Here's another main role, Tiffany Wilson, who is Lesley's mean and selfish and nervous cousin, performed by PC. And the handsome guy, Matthew, who is also in this lousy triangle.

  It's about the two sisters in the Wilson family, Lesley and Tiffany. Lesley was not a real Wilson, but a cousin actually to Tiffany. Her parents died in a big fire when she was only a baby, and she was adopted by the Wilsons. But she doesn't remember any of it and assumed herself as a Wilson since nobody has told her the story, though she is sometimes treated unfairly. Tiffany is a queen-like girl, totally different from the quiet, shy Lesley. Matthew is a succesful young man, and is a friend of Mr. Wilson's. The story starts in a ball held by the Wilsons. Tiffany met Matthew by the introduction of her father. Then, Matthew found Lesley in the corner reading a book, so he sat down and talked to Lesley, which nervoused this shy girl a little bit. After the ball, Matthew keep contact with Lesley and he's sort of in love with her. Lesley was in love, too. So Tiffany got jealous. She told her father that she really loved Matthew. She was maybe, but she pratically WANTS him more than she loves him. Anyway, she pursued her father to tell Lesley that Les is not a Wilson and shouldn't be here anymore. They did make her get lost in the end, and Tiff told Mat that Les had died of illness. Tiff and Mat got married. Three years passed by, finally Tiff is fed up with Mat's so-cold attitude, then she found Mat still can't forget Les. Just in the middle of the argument, Les came back. She was so happy to see Tiff and said she still loves Tiff and the Wilsons. But Mat was angry with Tiff for lying to him. Tiff drove mad, she found a gun somewhere and started to threat Les and Mat. Finally she shot Les, and was killed by Mat at the same time, but Mat wasn't quick enough to save Les. He was fully in despair when Les died in his arms. He suicided in the end.

  It's a typically tragedy. But I have a serious problem with my role...

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

    I'm dog-tired this week! Yet still I hadn't finish everything.
    Classes are getting harder, and I get more courses this semester. I want to catch up but it seems harder than it did. Lazy am I, still want some time to do things like extra reading, music-composing, WOW, etc. Hard balance it is.
    It's a new school year and heaps of freshmen are coming in (there's no point in discussing about the school uniforms anymore). 尤 had come back finally and enrolled in Class 4 which I found surprisingly just on Friday. 闫 fell in love with 戴云 in the TOEFL calss and acted abnormally as one can ever imagine. Pointguard was in that class too and was shocked when I told him that the 348 girl is 闫——yes, he knew her since Junior High but didn't recognize her in that class. Btw, PG went to 汇佳 while I thought he might go to a public school.
    It's Teacher's Day on Sunday, 10th Sept. We had a party of c0208 on Friday. Jessica, 大头, Henry（猴子）came after school and we met in front of the new Junior High building (the school has to separate the High School and Junior High part for some reason. The new JH building is once where the music classrooms and the library was. The old JH building is now where library, art and Year 9 classrooms are). We gathered and chatted for a while, with dear Mr.王 菜花. Then they went for a dinner which I didn't go. I went straight home with a tired throat (I had a Department-of-Students'-Website meeting before seeing them -- which I'll explain later -- and did a lot of saliva spitting.)
    The new coming freshmen also means another election of Student's Union. Emily called me for a Website Department meeting approximately at Tuesday's lunch break, which turns out that only me, Em, and Liu Yang showed up. Then I get the news, which is actually a bit late, that the Web Dep is a separate Dep now, no longer attached to 宣委. And the new teacher in charge of Students' Union in this case assumed Em as the new Dep president and I'm the vice-president. (Mr.田 is away, the new teacher -- Miss or Mrs.Jin, was once the teacher in charge of Class 5, teaching English.) Yet the WD has almost collapsed as you see, so we've gonna have to start at the beginning this year, including doing some evolutiong and revolution. It's hard work, above our imagination. BE BRAVE GUYS!! There's some new students signing up for the WD, but not much. And at last only a cute girl in c0607 and 5 guys in g0601 attended Friday's meeting (Damn it!). They're still very capable though. (The girl in c0607 named "佳慧", is tooootally different from the other "x慧". >_< ) B206 and B104 was not avilable that time, so we found a place on the 1st floor, circled up, and had a discussion. We talked about how we can enrich the contents of the website, and left contacts. Em and I told them to get familiar with the website this week, and gave them some hunting work to start with. I was discussing, announcing, and brainstorming at the same time, and it's hard to get those guys concentrated on what's going on and get activated. I don't want to talk about our/my ideas or plans about website-building here, 'cause it's a whole mass of things messed up. Btw, Dad said he is supporting us at his best. Thx dad!

    I'm talking fun now, after suffering from school work and department bussiness. Mrs.刘 asked for english novel reading, so I took the booklist ST gave me to ZBB on Saturday, also planning to buy the new albums of F.I.R. and Jay. I paid for 5 books on the list, then I found that I forgot to bring the money my mom gave me and was short of 2.3RMB for the two albums. After some difficult determining, I went for the F.I.R., thinking of coming back again the next day. (I had got in to the bad luck that Wood was in.)
    Finally, Sunday. After going to school for half an hour, I got Jay's in ZBB. At the same time, I searched for Green Day and Marilyn Manson's album. "American Idiot" is on the shelf but none of MM's. Still, I'm happy with getting 3 new CDs in one weekend. Yippee!!
   慧 dragged me into the c0206 class party so it was already 4 p.m. when I got home. Then Em caught me on MSN. We did some brainstorming and summarizing about contents of the website. I spent almost the whole evening organizing those messy ideas and came up with a primary plan at last. It's not yet bed time, 'cause there's still homework. Gosh!

 

    Mean and 灰空 was on QQ when I logged on later, then I got on WOW to enchant something for Mean. After that, being a little bored, we went to the battlegrounds. Horde won and I ranked 1st. Lol.
    I always don't get enough sleep.
    ZZzzzz....

 

    Guarddy is growing teeth, so he became naughty and annoying, biting our clothes. He's got our housework-helper bleeding Thursday.
    It was said that he will stop that when he is four months old. Oh, God bless us before that!

笑周六时候发了短信，问有没有兴趣再写歌？我说好啊。

周一她把歌词给我了，写的的确，的确，的确不错（Wayne快来快来看！！！）。但是我这曲调很难写...

很有意境哦～～但是她没把名字给我＝。＝写的是Freiburg的感觉。至今仍然能够回忆那个教堂，那个广场，嗯嗯。

笑难得写感情诶...不过很有味道的。

现在有点想法，但是仍然在困境中。

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

今天人才给我发了首歌，说是Hide写的，后来给buta打电话验证了一下。

 

开始听有点感觉，后来越来越喜欢。

传说这是hide的黑暗哥德式纯音乐作品。

 

三拍子的快节奏，重拍，某个人在念叨着法语。好像欧洲大街小巷的folk，踩着节奏在浪漫的季节，香榭丽舍大街上溜溜达达，随意平凡又隐约透露出高雅。脸上挂着或懒散或有点嘲讽的微笑，身穿尼龙格子的大衣，到每个小店里面转一转，看看那些有风格的小玩意。开朗明亮睿智的小女人，在笑着碎碎念: Je t' aime.

 

呃，其实很难描述那个音乐的感觉。

 

暗黑处的暴走 说:
  我倒是想看这个的MV，如果有的话
Johnny 说:
  哈
Johnny 说:
  和我想得一样

暗黑处的暴走 说:
  嘎嘎
Johnny 说:
  我想用这一段东西做一段视频

 

个人觉得要是编舞也不错，只是没那个水平啊。

大家可以去找这首歌...下面贴歌词。其实在人才的blog里面也有的。我的BT字体大小也是跟他学的。

 

很多人都说Live改版了不好看了不方便操作了页面全是大字体和错。

前两天我电脑又有点崩溃，我换了一个新用户...

然后我的Live好了！

嘎嘎嘎，挖卡卡。

现在非常完美的页面...看着就爽。

So what? Who cares?

I, DON'T, CARE.

 

不想证明什么，也不需要证明什么，更不愿意被证明什么。

我管你呢?!

我还是T，还是T。

T回来了，T觉得T是最好的。T是最自由的，T是最崇高的。

T是最值得去追求的。T是最坚定的！

T又回来了。疯癫啊，但是不俗的T回来了。

我迷惑过，我改变过，但是现在，我还是T了。

T——是我，也是另一个我。T一直在，我一直试图回到她身边。

我还是T，笑，谢谢你，我还是T！

我从来，从来没有像现在这样，这么的想回去，重来一次过。

I won't be so naive, so...

I'll think twice.